So I have yet again reached an unhealthy weight. I know my triggers and stress and anxiety has me reaching for food. I have decided to focus for the next two months (up to Christmas) on really overhauling my diet and exercise to see if I can drop 5kg. I'm day three and it is going okay - key for me is to work out different ways to manage my stress - exercises, hobbies, cleaning etc. Chad is being so supportive and really helping me with portion size at dinner and encouraging me to hop on the rower when I get home from work. I want to set a good roll model for Grace and dont want to rock into 50 with this weight hanging over me. While I am unlikely to ever get to the 75kg that is needed to reach a healthy BMI, I can at least get out of the morbidly obese category and get to 90kg. It might take 6 months but this is critical to my health and to ensuring I am around for Grace.