A Work In Progress

So nice to join "The Days" at the beach. Enjoy the sun, tasty food, and being with my family.  We are all older, slower (especially getting off the ground after sitting on the picnic rug!!), and still the same loving and connected people that we always have been. Nothing like having this closeness and knowing that no matter what happens in the future, these people will be in my corner.   I am very lucky to have such a wonderful family.

Anxiety at a high. Feels like things are so fragile and it's hard to cope. Just wish my brain had an off switch. So I try keep busy to distract by broken brain.

After over 100 days in lockdown, we head into Christmas. It is such a hard time of year, made harder by the exhaustion I am feeling from the past 100 days. The thing with lock down is tht you always feel like you are letting someone down - it might be work if you are focusing on family, it might be Grace if I am focusing on work. the juggle is hard!  Grace has done really well emotionally, she has had fun and enjoyed the closeness that comes with us all being at home (not to mention the extra screen time!). Her accademic work has suffered, she is still really struggling with maths but we just have to keep focusing on it and hope that the principles click for her.  Chad's work is going well, a steady stream of go aheads on the jobs he quotes is meaning he is feelign secure with his company's future and his own role in the company. Mine is a bit more up in the air,so I keep looking for options but so far no luck Will try to be kind and gentle with myself over the break. Have ...