After over 100 days in lockdown, we head into Christmas. It is such a hard time of year, made harder by the exhaustion I am feeling from the past 100 days.
The thing with lock down is tht you always feel like you are letting someone down - it might be work if you are focusing on family, it might be Grace if I am focusing on work. the juggle is hard!
Grace has done really well emotionally, she has had fun and enjoyed the closeness that comes with us all being at home (not to mention the extra screen time!). Her accademic work has suffered, she is still really struggling with maths but we just have to keep focusing on it and hope that the principles click for her.
Chad's work is going well, a steady stream of go aheads on the jobs he quotes is meaning he is feelign secure with his company's future and his own role in the company. Mine is a bit more up in the air,so I keep looking for options but so far no luck
Will try to be kind and gentle with myself over the break. Have gained so much lock down weight that I really need to focus on losing some of that as it is getting really unhealthy.
One day at at time but to focus and harness Grace's Christmas joy. She is so excited and I want her not see my anxiety.
