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Braces and Blue Hair

Today Grace got braces. It took two full hours to get them installed and she was so strong and brave.  Chad is back at work after the school holidays, so week three of his new job at Howick College. He is finding the change hard and it is giving him anxiety which I hate seeing. I really hope he starts enjoying it as I know how good he will be at it once his confidence sets in, Work for me is good, I really enjoy Bluebird and the people are great. I have days where I struggle but most days I feel good and strong. I’m proud of where I have gotten to in my career. It’s a funny phase of life I’m in, turning 50 soon, at the back part of my career but still wanting to succeed, Grace is getting older and her friends are more of the centre of her world than I am. My face and body don’t reflect my mind and I feel young and at my best professionally and mentally, but the world sees me as middle aged. I want to age disgracefully and be confident, loud and unapologetic of the woman I am. Maybe...

Changes

 It's school holidays at the moment and I have seen a couple of big changes in her. For the longest time, a huge reward for Grace has been allowed to sleep in our bed with me. Overnight that has changed and she no longer wants to. While I know that it is a natural part of the passing of time, a little part (okay a big part) of my heart aches. I miss that being with me was a highlight of her day. How we would snuggle up and chat. How warm her little body was and her beautiful face while she slept. The other change is how much she chats to her friends (on text of course, phone calls are soooo last century). She and a boy in her class have crushes on each other and chat - all harmless sweet stuff but another sign of her growing up. I miss my little girl but am trying to focus on getting to know and staying connected to my big girl.