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Guilt baking

So as I head back to work on Monday, I am now starting to feel guilty about leaving my girl. As a result, I am baking mini muffins for her snacks.

It is frustrating that I find myself feeling so guilty even though I know I need to go to work and that she has the best Dadda in the world who will be taking care of her.

I find myself worrying about stupid things; will she still love me, will she resent me leaving her, what if I'm not home in time for cuddles before bed?

I have always had a lot of empathy for working mums. The only difference is that now I understand the gut wrenching ache that consumes you when you head out the door and leave your child behind.

But my logical mind knows it will be okay. Grace knows how loved she is and that her Mama and Dadda are dedicated to her helping her grow into a wonderful person.

But in the meanwhile I better get back to my baking. ..scones are next...

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