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I'm very annoyed at myself for focusing on the wrong things

My baby girl turns one next month and all I can think about is how much weight I've gained and need to lose. I know that I need to work on it (and I am trying) but more importantly  I need to focus  on the miracle that the last 20 months have been.

I nurtured a wee life in me. I gave birth. I fall more in love everyday with my girl and her Dad. I experienced amazing support from friends and family. I was able to take a full year off work with my girl to bond with her. I now return to a great job and know my girl is having fun with her Dadda. My girl is happy and healthy. My partner makes me feel like the most beautiful  woman in the world.

I will get healthy, it is important.  But I also need to focus on the wonderful family I have and the happiness in my world.

Weight is just a number and a number shouldn't control your happiness.

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