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Fretful Mother

It's been a week where I feel I have gotten a handle on my work. I've chipped away at some things and am feeling more confident. And that is great!!

On the home front, I continue to feel torn about missing out. I love my work but I love Grace more. I hope she knows that. I hope I show her enough.  I remember watching The Simpsons and seeing Marge reading "Fretful Mother" magazine. I laughed then at the joke but some times that is exactly how I feel.

My biggest battle at the moment is tiredness. The funny thing is I was great at the start with the broken nights sleep. Now my girl sleeps from 6pm to 6am and yet I'm more tired than ever...what's that about?

This weekend we have friends to visit, chores to do and I need to do a bit of work. I'm also taking Chad out on a date on Sunday night and I'm really looking forward to that. My favourite part about every weekend is the time we spend as a family and I can't wait to spend the day with Gracie tomorrow.

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