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Looking back

I wrote the letter below when I was five weeks pregnant. And here we are now, celebrating my second mother's day. Time flies. Each day holds more surprises, more smiles and at times more tears!

I'm now getting a glimpse into how my Mum feels. Boy it's hard to love so hard that you want to protect your child from everything and yet be brave enough to let them grow.

Love being your mum Grace.

And to my own Mum - I love being your daughter.

26th May 2013

Dear Baby,

Starting to get used to being pregnant. I know I have a long way to go, but I am getting excited about the journey ahead and all that it will bring.

Today your Dad and I bought your first outfit. We were so excited walking into Pumpkin Patch, hand in hand, realising that we were buying something that you will be wearing in eight months.

Next week we have a doctor's appointment and we will talk about how to manage my blood pressure over the pregnancy and what medications I can take. Some hard decisions ahead as I want to put your needs first, but I need to balance that with staying healthy myself, as to be your best Mum, I need to be well.

I have also booked our first scan on 11th June. I am so excited. We should be able to see your heart beating. Oh my teeny tiny baby, I can't wait to see you. I know you are real, but this whole experience feels very surreal right now.

I love you
Your Mum

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