Today I worked from home. Grace was very happy to help me, decorating my arm with stickers. Tonight, with Chad off at cricket, Gracie and I did our routine of bath and then snuggle up in bed watching movie together. I love time together with my girl. Although I'm really hoping she doesn't wake up at 4am and come in our room like she has the last few nights. The cuddles are lovely but the lack of sleep isn't!!
Turning 50 is a weird milestone - I dont feel 50, and I dont really put a lot of weight behind milestone numbers. But I do like reflecting on life, and I feel I have grown, learnt from many of my mistakes, and lived a pretty great life. The biggest change is watching just how much Grace has grown this year. Today I washed some of her baby clothes that I found so I can store them and it took me right back to when my whole clothes line had tiny little outfits on it. This year, she everything has changed and I am in so much grief for the loss of some of the old routines, it hurts!! She is still my little button and I see that side of her when she is unsure or overwhelmed. I need to manage my patience through these growing phases, as my sister said "give her space and grace". She is the kindest, funniest and sweetest girl and I love her so much that it honestly hurts. I hope she knows that. She seems to have all my worst moments front of mind that I wonder at times if she sees ...