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Early Christmas

I used to hate Christmas. The stress, the pressure of another year over and still feeling like a failure. With Grace here, it's different. I still feel pressure and anxiety, and at a times a little bit like a failure, especially with my weight. But seeing the joy in Graces face as we prepare for the big day, I can't help but feel joy too.

Tonight we had an early Christmas dinner with my family.  The kids got to open their presents and Grace was so excited! She also was magnificent with her toilet training, undies all day!

As it was already late when we left my sister's house, we decided to drive to a street in Howick where every house is decorated with lights. Grace couldn't believe her eyes. We walked the street and she giggled at the magic of it all.

Got her home and in bed by 10pm! She crashed immediately and I hoping she won't be too tired tomorrow.  But it was worth it, a special night, and one that reminds how special this time of year is.

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