Another busy weekend spent working on the house. We have in total spread 5 cubic metres of bark and are very tired and scratched but happy with the results.
Truffle and I have continued our ongoing battle with cushions on the couch. I believe we should have them, he disagrees.
Our passive aggressive routine of me putting the cushions on the couch and him knocking them off with his nose has been going on since he arrived. I have no idea what he has against cushions but he really hates them.
Mean while Gracie and I looked at her Treasure Jar. This is the jar that I have been using since she was about three to add in the treasures she collects in her pockets or bags when she is out and about. I exclude things that rot, but it is a pretty good mix of things that she sees and things are interesting, or pretty or useful to do "crafty stuff" with.
Grace is working so hard with her drop off. We have been going to before school care and we have had tears most days which breaks my heart to see. But the positive side is that she has been transitioning really well between before school care and her class room without me there. We are so proud of her and her teacher has promised her a certificate if she does 10 times of no tears and she is really focused on that prize. I had told the teacher that she missed out last year on her "Independence Certificate" because she couldn't conquer the drop off fear, and while they don't officially give them our in year two, I love that they are making an exception for Gracie. I know she can do it!!
As for me, I still go through waves of anxiety at times and it is so frustrating when it hits you and you have to do the mental gymnastics to talk yourself back into reality and calm. But I know that I can manage, I am so strong and I can get through anything. I know that by managing this I will be a good role model for Grace and show her that you can get through anything if you have the right tools to navigate the feelings and the right people around you to give you that extra boost of love.
I am feel so tired at the moment and I think that brings on the anxiety more. But like all things, it will pass and I will focus on "what is" and not fear "what could be".