One of the hardest things about being a Project Manager at work is that it is hard to turn off the skill at home.
I am very good at my job. I trouble shoot problems, I have plan A, B and C to tap into as issues come up. There was a time that those work skills worked, for the most part, for me at home. But I find the complex life of being a Mum, a wife and a daughter, that when you plan for two many contingencies, your brain get very tired.
This time of hear is hard for me, it always has been. I feel that there are so many needs I have to meet, so many requests, so much "invisible work" to do. I am exhausted and in fear of the next few weeks.
This morning I found myself wishing for Jan 11th. The reason why? Because that is when all the holidays will be finished and I can go back to work. I realised this is a horrible thing to think but my brain is so full of lists to complete and of people I need to make happy, I just want to go back to the normal every day routine.
I know I need to plan less, find more peace, and appreciate the day as it is. I need to see and feel the joy my daughter has about Christmas. I need to value my Mum and Dad and the time I have with them in Taupo. I need to appreciate my caring husband and ensure he sees how much I love each day with him.
I need to just be.
