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Being brave.

Another day in beautiful Taupo and another anxiety attack. I have to hide it from my family so I don't bring down the mood. I hate my brain so much. Booked into see a specialist but won't be until June. So I need to cope till then. Mind you, its not likely he'll have a silver bullet solution.

We went for a walk down by the river today. I love it there. Its nice to be close to nature and away from work. I've got to try and stay away from emails for the rest of this week. I don't want to get stressed with work dramas on top of my anxiety.

I hate me brain so much. It is so hard to cope when you are living in fear everyday. I have to be so strong. And I know I can be. I know I can.

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