Lockdown this time is harder - harder to stay calm and surpress my anxiety, harder at work with increased workloads. I know that things will be okay, I have lots of levers to pull if I need to to look after my family, but I also know logic doesnt always calm the voice in my head.
So I am keeping busy. I have started walking each day at 6am, trying to move that time earlier to 5am so that it is a habit I can keep going with post lockdown. I am not controlling my diet yet (one change at at time!) but that will come in time. Maybe I can shift a bit of weight and get a bit healther. Can't get ahead of myself too much, but its worth the effort to stay healthy for longer.
Also am starting to see what is out there on the job front. It is going to be hard given my age and, if I'm honest, my appearance. Sadly these things do matter when you are looking for a job. But I want to try earn a bit more money to try and get my family ahead.
Anyway, one step at a time, one challenge at a time.
Grace has her desk in the family room, mainly due to space in her room but also to help her not lock herself away. She just finished tidying it and I love how it represents where she is at. Lots of art, Lego still displayed proudly, pillow on chair covering her phone ( she is still adhering to the no phone in her room rule, yay!), pottery on display. A beautiful blend of child and teenager!